Ambivalence stemming from, do I keep that card my friend sent me? It had such a kind message. I need a tangible reminder. Or I need to pay that in two weeks. Or I need to deal with such and such a situation, but I am putting it off. Which takes me to another word. Procrastination.
Procrastination, is a misnomer. It start with pro which is a positive, but the rest is negative. It is based on fear, isn't it? What will happen if I deal with this. What will they think, if I can't make that payment? What if? What if...
Anyway, some of these papers were so out of date it was easy to deal with them. Others I had settled already. There were five envelopes that had addresses I needed to write down. So what I am figuring out, is I need to have an address book near by, in the kitchen, as well as a shredder, which I already have, and I need to have to have a system. I already throw away the junk mail as I receive it. But I need to be honest with myself. Perhaps call a spade a spade.
Perhaps I need to have a category called: Afraid to deal with! followed by Deal with it! as an encouragement. Another category called due in two weeks. To be filed. To photocopy. To decide. The point is I am going to deal with my mail in a more timely manner because I am starting to like not having all those boxes stashed away or stacked in a corner.
Maybe I am not alone.
I have only one more basket to sort and I will be through. I am going to design this system. It might just work, not only for me, but for someone else.